Thanks so much to everyone who answered my question about London! We booked a nice hostel today next to Hyde Park, it’s crazy how most of the hostels in our price-range were either fully booked or really badly rated… Anyways, I’m so excited about this long weekend trip, can’t wait to get out of here again. If you have any London tips please let me know :) Thanks again, sending you all my love.

I don’t think about him as much as I used to anymore but every time I do I wonder if I’ll ever be able to love someone as much as I love him. After all these years. I don’t even know him anymore, I probably never have. How is this even possible how do I stop this feeling

…and you drink a little too much and try a little too hard. And you go home to a cold bed and think, ‘That was fine’. And your life is a long line of fine.
― Gillian Flynn (via uglypnis)
I had no idea what I wanted, only that I wanted something, which is the worst kind of wanting.
― David Levithan Love Is The Higher Law   (via lexophil)

I finally ordered the books Just Kids and Prozac Nation. It’s really sad how I actually haven’t read a real book in like 2 months because of all the studying I had to do. I’ve been eying these books for ages so I’m really happy that I finally ordered them. Anyways, I can’t wait to start reading again. I’m really trying this being a happy and balanced person thing. So far exercising has helped me a lot to channel my energy. Also I’m eating healthier, smoking less, catching up with old friends and really really trying not to be a negative lazy piece of shit haha. Well, I hope you’re all okay. I’m really sorry for the lack of updates, I really want to make more personal posts on here again but sometimes it’s just really hard to find the right words.